Inquisitive Mind

Hi! My name is Gabriellee “Gabby” Queqquegan and I live in the Philippines. I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 Disorder ever since I was in my university years. I am turning 23 now and to be honest, everyday is still a struggle and a war between myself and my demons in my head.

For those who are new to bipolar disorder, this is is a form of disorder that is characterised by cycles of depressive episodes followed by hypomanic periods.

Living with Bipolar Disorder is not easy. Some days you feel like you are the king of the world and there are days wherein you feel hopeless, depressed, and lonely. I remember hurting myself almost everyday in the restroom of my university because I felt so alone in my battle with myself. there are days where I could not stop myself from working and working to the point of exhaustion.

One thing I learned throughout my journey is that your biggest enemy and hindrance in life is not other people; your biggest enemy is yourself. I learned that taking medications for my disorder is not enough. I need to bounce back and find hope within myself. I realised that I should start accepting and forgiving myself for not being the perfect person others thought I could be. I came to realise that I am perfect in my own way. I am born in this world to leave my mark in history.

To everyone out there, you are not alone. There will be days of darkness but always remember that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Follow it. That light is who you are born to be. You will be the master of your own destiny and the author of your life. Take it. Take care of it. You have all the power in your world to make a difference.